CHRISTIANE F. WE CHILDREN FROM ZOO STATION
Piss and shit all over the place; just take a good look at it
At first sight it looks fine, with its lawns...
...and shopping centres
But the staircases of the flats stink
What can kids do, when they're playing outside?
They'll shit themselves waiting for the lift, so they go in the lobby
l've lived here since l was six, with my mother, sister and cat
l've had enough of it
The posters are all over town
''Sound. Europe's latest disco'' l want to go to it
One Saturday l told mother l'd sleep over at Kessi's
Kessi is top of my class, everyone approves of her
She's got real tits already; l admire her
''Sound'' is her second home; she's here every Saturday
She's taking me for the first time
Get a move on!
Is she sixteen?
Sure, in my cIass
-Is Atze here? -When is he never here?
Put your bag there. You can't waIk around with a pIastic bag here
Wait here
Cherry juice
We're in the cinema
Crazy stuff
-Won't you have some? -I'm not in the mood yet
-Your first, eh? -Don't taIk crap
Stop that
You shouIdn't have taken that trip
Too much for you?
Are you O.K.?
This is AxeI
I'm DetIev
I'm going back
Coming back in?
See you
-Pitty, where have you been? -He's been pIaying with the kids
-Why weren't you at schooI? -I've been packing
What's that?
Has the oId man won you over?
You're Ieaving because of Mum's friend?
That's Dad; he's waiting for me downstairs
Mum's sIaving for us and you just want to cIear off
Be happy, it Ieaves more for you
No, I want you to stay here
And I want to try it with Dad
-Remember aII the troubIe he caused? -He wants to make up for it
Coming down with me?
Won't you think it over?
I don't understand you
Any message for Dad?
Don't be cross
Why no Iights?
Did you see Sabine?
-Now we two are aIone -She'II be back
-You think so? -She won't stick it out with Dad
You know what?
We'II have a nice evening together
Turn it
-CarefuI, it's running -That's what I want
It's KIaus. I invited him, so we're not so aIone. Do you mind?
Can I borrow your shoes tonight?
You're going out?
Just to Kessi's
If you must
I've something for you
I hope you Iike it
Yes, thanks
Are we going somewhere? Anywhere?
-Coming, too? -Where?
I'm too tired
SIeep when you're dead
Cops!
I hope they didn't get Kessi
-Mum thinks I'm sIeeping at her pIace -And her Mum thinks she's with you?
Do you often go to Sound?
-WiII you be there next week? -Of course
This is reaIIy high
I'm feeIing dizzy
Been on a trip again?
You don't think much of trips?
Not reaIIy
Want one?
Did you do that yourseIf?
-Didn't it hurt? -Yes, but I was bored
It's aImost dawn
-Are you going home? -What about you?
I'm going to my pIace; come with me, if you Iike
I'm staying at AxeI's
Are you angry now?
We thought the cops had got you
Look, two Martians
She was that Ioaded, there was hardIy enough room for her in the Iift
The cops
Come over here
I think they're stiII Iooking for us
You ought to arrest him; he's an addict
You're coming with me
Keep away from each other
No siIIy ideas for Kessi
Can you do homework with such a row?
It's the record KIaus gave me
KIaus gave me this record
It doesn't mean it shouId be so Ioud
David Bowie is coming to BerIin
The guy on the record from KIaus
You want to go?
Can Kessi come, too?
I often sIeep at her pIace
I might be abIe to get two tickets through the office
Have you hurt yourseIf?
That's a tattoo
A what?
A tattoo. It's not quite finished
You'II never get it off
WeII,youh ave to waIk around with it
-I've just met a boy -And he has one Iike it
You know, I didn't reaIIy think of going to the concert with Kessi
I get you
-Are you going to the concert, too? -I can't afford it
What have you bought? ''H''?
You can swaIIow three trips at once, or something eIse to turn you on
I can get you anything, but Ieave ''H'' aIone
Otherwise, I won't see you again
AxeI, DetIev wants to take ''H''
If he fancies it
Didn't you understand me?
If he wants to take it, he wiII
-Can't you taIk to him? -Me, of aII peopIe?
What do you mean?
I thought you were his friend
I thought he Iived at your pIace
Stay cooI, kid
Take something before you fIip out
Look at them. The cooIer they are, the more shots they've had
What's up?
-You Iook Iike a corpse -Because I'm a bIood donor
-Why do you do it? -Because I need the dough
I'II see if somebody's got a VaIium Ieft for us
Mandrax. I couIdn't get VaIium
-Is he iII? -He needs a shot
-Apart from me, who doesn't shoot up? -No one I know
Got any dough?
Twenty marks
I'II get some. Wait outside
I've got some. And I've got my oId man's car
Ciao, thanks for the dough
Open up
I want to try it
No way
I paid for it
I want my share
Let me in
I don't shoot up, I just sniff
Just think
-Just for once -As they aII say
I'm in controI of myseIf
Take that, and you'II soon be as far gone as me
-You'II be a corpse then -From giving bIood?
Why don't you join us?
Something wrong?
Got a trip for me?
What doyouw ant with a trip?
-Do you want a drink? -Cherry juice
I'II get it; I won't be Iong
-What did Babsie want from you? -A trip
Be carefuI, don't give her one. She swaIIows aII she can get
-And what do you do? -It's not the same at aII
Know somewhere I can sIeep?
Your own home
I don't want to go home, I'm fed up with it
There's some sexy guys here
Are you crazy?
-You can taIk -Do you copy everything I do?
I onIy wanted to know what you feeI Iike
Groovy, eh?
AxeI, it's me
Make yourseIf at home
This is for you
AxeI made it for you
ReaIIy?
Does your mother know where you're sIeeping?
Sure, she isn't stupid
We see each other onIy at weekends
We can meet when I come back from schooI
We can't do that
Why not?
I go to Zoo Station
What for?
Pick-ups
BuIIshit
HonestIy
ReaIIy?
With the pansies?
I onIy jerk them off
It's nothing, considering what they pay
Don't you go to bed with them?
Yes, but even then I don't do more
What do you feeI?
It's a job. They mustn't touch me
I won't Iet them jerk me off. It wouIdn't be a job then
-So it doesn't excite you -It's repuIsive. Just for dough
Don't you Iike me so much now?
Good night
You can get up now. My mother has Ieft
-Are you fourteen aIready? -I'm an aduIt from today on
That Iooks great
You reckon?
-Have you got anything to wear? -I didn't come here naked
-You can't wear the same oId rags -Why not?
CIean things. You can wear my Bowie jacket
Here's something to turn you on
Have you got any ''H''?
Are you crazy?
Don't touch it
I onIy want to try it
I have myseIf under controI
As they aII say
When you Ieave, shut the door properIy
Come again soon
Sure, I wiII
Hey, girI, how much?
Excuse me, do you fuck? I pay a Iot
Muhametto, Ieave her aIone. Go on, cIear off
Are you catching a train?
No. Are you? Looking for DetIev, too?
Has he disappeared?
There's ''PissneIke''. He Iets me piss on him
-What does he do? -It's what he wants
Nonsense
Ask him yourseIf
I stand over him and piss
-I can't do it if I'm watched -He grabs my prick
AxeI, come here
AxeI can do that. The punters Iike him
Who's that?
''Stuttering Max''. He onIy comes when he's fIogged
Look who's here
Don't come here. I won't have my girI friend coming to ''Zoo''
The scum of the earth. You don't beIong here
EspeciaIIy not on your birthday
I wanted to bring cake for you
And this. Mother said I was to buy myseIf something nice
''Who wants to piss in my mouth? I drink anything''
AxeI, there's something for you
-I want to shoot up today, too -No way
Whether I shoot or sniff, it makes no difference
-It does. A shot is Iike a hammer -Don't taIk shit
It's a sexuaI cIimax
Shit, it's cIogged. Try and see if you can get one through
-You can ditch that one after -Don't taIk crap
Can you Iend me your kit?
Keep cIear of that, girI
PIease heIp me
You've no idea
How was it?
I had a different idea of a sexuaI cIimax
Do you want to sIeep with me at the weekend?
If you Iike
On one condition
No ''H''
I Iove you so
We must stop shooting up
You mustn't get hooked
I don't want you to die
Mother wonders why I'm not fatter, with aII these sandwiches
Got a shot for me?
You won't get one from me
Don't be mean. Your pupiIs are pinheads, yet you teIImet o stop
At Ieastyouc an stay cIean
You just want to hog it aII
I want to be on the same IeveI as you
O.K., a smaII shot
I'II do the next punter for you. See him?
He's crazy about me
Don't go to him
Because he has a crush on you
That'II make him pay weII
Why didn't you show up?
No time. I've got a reguIar guy
Sunk reaIIy Iow, eh?
You can taIk
You fuck?
-She fucks heII out of them -What makes you so sure?
-You Iet them stick it in anywhere -JeaIous. You hump with foreigners
-ShaII we ceIebrate our reunion? -I'm waiting for my dope
I'II Iend you some
-I did seven tricks in an hour -You bIew them aII?
Seven in an hour. A Iot of dough
-With condoms? -You can do it with them, too
Without you might catch oraI cIap
''At fourteen he was on drugs. He took an overdose in a fit of desperation''
One Iess after the stuff
''As Iong as something's Ieft to shoot, I'II never take an overjoIt
''DeepIy moving fareweII Ietter of seventeen-year-oId Andreas W''
I know him. That's Atze
Be seeing you
What's up?
-That was my Iast shot. Must get some -What about me?
I need some for tomorrow morning. I can't go to schooI otherwise
I need some right now, or I'II have the horrors in two hours
I must go now
It's O.K.
You know what? Maybe I can heIp you
Maybe I can get something begging
I'II be at KurfArstendamm
CouId you give me a mark? I need a mark
CouId you give me a mark for the underground?
OId jerk!
-Are you crazy? -Get in
-What's up? -What do you think?
I don't do humping
-Why not? -I'm going steady
-You'II bIow, then -That makes me puke
That doesn't Ieave much
AII right, just jerk me off
For one hundred marks
First the dough
I've got some
So much?
Where did you get so much?
Begging didn't work
I jerked off a guy
He gave me one hundred
Are you having me on?
Honest, I onIy jerked him off
One hundred marks for that?
What shouId I have done, then?
I did it for you
What I toId you was true
I did it for you
You did it for yourseIf, because you were scared of going short
You'd have done it even if I hadn't existed
This is aII because we shoot up
But we'II make it, we'II start to withdraw some time
We'II withdraw with VaIeron
And I promise I won't turn tricks with a punter
We'II make it yet
Christiane, hurry up
Why Iock the door?
I must Ieave, I'II be Iate
Why are you taking so Iong?
You'II be Iate for schooI
Christiane, do you hear?
UnIock the door, what's the idea?
What's the matter?
Get a face-cIoth
ShaII I caII a doctor?
ChiId, what's the matter?
My circuIation
-What are you doing here? -Your mother caIIed for me
At ''Zoo''?
So we can withdraw together
If two withdraw together, that's the end
Rubbish, not with us
I can't stand it any more
Are you crazy?
Keep off that
Let me. PIease, Iet me
Just a IittIe sniff against the pain
Bernd, you're stiII aIive, oId boy
-Sure. And where have you two been? -Take a good Iook at us
-You're cIean, eh? -Did you withdraw?
You bet
They've withdrawn
You reaIIy did it?
Yes, we reaIIy did it. It wasn't aII that bad
AII you need is Iots of VaIeron, VaIium and suchIike
I think that's great
You can do it, too, AxeI. ReaIIy
ShaII we do it?
ReaIIy?
I'II get dough for VaIeron
We can start with it next week
We'II teII Babsie and SteIIa, they might join us
A cooI, cIean cIique. We'II onIy smoke grass sometimes
I couId have started today, but I've bought ''H'' aIready
We can stiII shoot that
Sure, that's O.K.
We'II be back soon
That was reaIIy something, eh?
That reaIIy was crazy
On the first day aIready
If we keep it under controI, be carefuI not to get addicted to it
We know now that we can quit
So we can permit ourseIves one shot
We couId ask them if they have a shot for us
O.K., Iet's ask
AxeI, don't you know it's Saturday?
They're Ietting you starve
You've no water, either
-We can't just Ieave him there -Want to take him with you?
Hurry up!
Why did he kiII himseIf?
He didn't. Some pig soId him strychnine
I can't stand this shit any more
I need a shot! I need a shot!
Where wiII you Iive now?
With my bIoke
-The one with a crush on you? -Who eIse?
You're a fine friend
Have you got a better idea?
You'd Iet any pansy shove his prick up your arse
You think I Iike foreigners humping you?
Do you know what you are? The Iousiest creature I've ever met
I'm sorry
I've never Iet them hump me
AII I ever do is bIow
Me, too
We must stop with this stuff
Yes, that's O.K.
But now I need a shot
Or I won't hoId out
-But we haven't any dough -Shit! I'II get some
O.K. Fifteen marks
Are you crazy? Some are brand new. This one's stiII in its wrapper
-Seventeen -Let's say twenty
-Find someone eIse -O.K., seventeen
Thanks
Babsie, have you got something for me?
In a year they'II be where we are
I'm giving it up
-Why are you stiII here, then? -I'II reaIIy start tomorrow
I'II withdraw tomorrow
I think that's reaIIy great
Either I stop... or I die
You'II stop, for sure
And when I've made it, I mean after the therapy... what then?
You know what? I'II give it up, too
I'II join you in therapy. We'II withdraw together
-ReaIIy? -You'II see, we'II make it yet
You bet?
What's this?
Come to me
Stay here
Look at me
I need money
Stay here
I onIy jerk them off
Look
It doesn't turn you on, eh?
Just a job
What can I do, then? TeII me
Have you seen Babsie?
The IittIe one?
It's been some time. She might have kicked the bucket, or be in jaiI
Don't taIk such crap
You need a shot, girI
I don't. I'm just Iooking for Babsie
If you've got one. You stiII owe me one, anyway
Sure, but right now I haven't got one myseIf
Tina, got anything for me?
Find your own stuff
Have you got the time?
You oId pig, Ieave me aIone
Berlin's youngest drug victim
She was only fourteen!
l survived
Mum took me to my Gran and Auntie, in a village near Hamburg
l've been clean for eighteen months
lt frightens me to think of Detlev. l often think of him
l'd like to give him some of my strength, and help him
But first l need the strength myself
Dedicated to Andreas W, ''Atze'', Axel W., Babette D, ''Babsie''
And all the others who lacked the strength and luck to survive